The beginning of the week was actually pretty hard on me. I just wanted to stay in bed and hide. I was mad at everything. I was mad at myself for allowing myself to be so negative. That is all I did at night was lay there and think. Think about all the what if's and the whys. I allowed myself to search the internet and read stuff that I shouldn't read. I have been trying my hardest to stay positive and to be strong through all of this but I failed this week. Each day has gotten better and I have made myself be positive and only think positive thoughts. Everyone else is staying strong around me so it is only fair to them that I stay strong right beside them.
Right now we are playing the waiting game. I will be heading back to Houston on March 27th to do scans and to see the oncologist. I am hoping by then we will have the pathology reports from surgery and will be able to move forward with a plan.
|This is the MRI before surgery. If you look closely the lesion they removed is on the right side of the picture (which is my left side) near the front of the head.|
|This is the aftermath of the surgery. To my surprise they didn't have to cut the whole side of my skull off to remove this lesion.|
|The girls wrote me letters and mailed them down to me.|
|Time to eat better.|
|It was so nice getting to see all these crazy kids|
|Monroe drew me a picture from my Topeka win. I love the detail she put into it.|
|This is the letter I recieved from Chow. He was Shawn Johnson and Gabby Douglas' coach at the 2008/2012 Olympics. I am pretty obsessed with this guy. He never stops smiling!|
|The team made me a blanket. They all signed one side and wrote quotes on the other.|
|I love these kids!!|