Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Mentally warn out

Round 4 came and went. It still made me feel crappy but it could have been worse. At least I was able to race this weekend. I got down to 8 cars on Saturday and them lost a close race 2nd round on Sunday.

Friday they removed my port because there was a clot on the bottom part that showed up on the CT scan from Houston. So the next two rounds of chemo will be administered through a vein. I was really nervous to have my port removed because the procedure was done in his office. He numbed me and then cut open the incision from before. I didn't feel a thing other then some tugging and pulling. I'm not gonna lie, I was kind of sad to see it go. I got attached to it in the last year.

Speaking of last year. I can't believe it has almost been a year since I was diagnosed. It's crazy to think how fast time goes. It has been a really rough year but I have so much to be thankful for.

Right now I am feeling alright. I have my ups and downs but I am hanging in there and trying to stay busy. I am just mentally warn out at this point. I am ready to get these last two rounds over with and not have to worry about how I can going to feel afterward. I am ready to not have my life revolve around this. I want to worry about racing and coaching my girls at the gym. Not which appointment I need to go to, which arm I want my blood drawn from or what scan I need to get done. I got shit (excuse my language, but its true) I need and want to do, so I wish this crap would just hurry and go away and go away forever.

Hope everyone had a great Memorial Day weekend.



  1. hang in there
    I hope it is over for you and you go on wining the race's so we can all cheer for you to bet your brother lol

  2. It was great to meet you today! You are an amazing and strong lady! Keep up the fight! Cancer has picked on the wrong person. You've got this!!! :)
    ~Amee B

  3. Jeryka
    The strength that you have is amazing. I pray for you everyday. Stay strong!!!

  4. You can do this Jeryka!! There are so many of us praying to God that he brings you through this battle and the outcome is a win!! Keep a positive outlook and let that cancer know you are going to bet it!! You've come a long way.